Nottingham Baby...

2006-10-30T13:39:00.000Z

After an average of 10 hits on this blog over the past 12 days of me having not written anything, I feel that it is time for an update. Later.

2006-10-20T15:54:00.000+01:00

Dunno when I wrote this last but I know it's been a while. Has been a kinda funny coupla days. Wednesday was good;

1pm-2pm Latin & Ballroom class where we had to do some crazy-ass cha cha that I had no idea how to do. The teacher-lady made me and the other 4 guys that had shown up stand at the front while we had to do it AND THEN suggested that all the girlies behind us look at our bottoms! THEN she decided to SPECIFICALLY point out my D&G bottom. See now, if I could do the stupid dance I would have minded but I couldn't :o(

2.30pm-4.30pm Rugby training!!

11.00pm-3.30am Work. Work was funny cuz I was at the same bar as Ron and he was working his ass off whilst I was just sat there! He worked from 8-4(ish) and I got the same amount of pay. I quite like being qualified you know...

Went to the arc last night was aight, hate having no cash. Have some today tho, but I owe most of it to people already!!

Oh and I watched the Chelsea match whenever that was on, don't think I wrote about that.

Gonna finish watching the last Samurai now.

Work tonight.

Laters...

2006-10-18T11:54:00.000+01:00

Last night went to the arc, tried to get a bunch of people to go too but every1s out 2nite wen am working which is annoying. 5 of us went down and then I got a text off of Ellie that I met Monday nite at work and went back 2 hers 4 a bit.

Bowt it really. Oh this morning I was woken up by the Asda man saying that my food had arrived...

2006-10-16T21:06:00.000+01:00

Don't really know where to start, no idea what the last thing I wrote was so I'm sorry if there are gaps.

Today is a bad day.

It was a year ago 2day that Nao broke my heart and it would have been our anniversary on Monday. I don't know if that has any bearing on how I am feeling right now or if it is just a strange conincedence. I just feel like absolute, total shit. I don't wanna do ANYTHING, I jus wanna sleep for a hundred years.

I miss my pup, I miss being able to call her n have her snuggle up in bed with me. I jus miss having sum1 u no? I feel so low and I can't explain it. I guess perhaps it's worse for me cuz am usually cheerful and when I feel down I kinda withdraw into myself and don't want to see anyone and am afraid that if I talk to someone or hug sum1 I'll break down and that's something I don't ever want to do. I guess I feel like I don't really know anyone well enough. I have only known every1 here for about a month!!

I wish I didn't feel this way, I feel so vunerable and pathetic. I feel an empty longing in the pit of my stomach and a lump in my throat.

It's not about Nao, I know it's not. I don't miss her and I don't want to get back with her. I know this for sure. ESPECIALLY cuz am happy 4 her and her guy, I really am. I miss talking to her sure, but I miss talking to all my friends. I guess it's kinda like if someone has their leg cut off, they ocassionally get phantom feelings from the missing limb(yeh that's from silence of the lambs, but we'll leave that alone) so maybe I'm just having old feelings kicked up. I dunno am waffling and talking nonsense.

I'm currently sat, eating Ben & Jerry's cookie dough ice cream and listening to my 'Now that's what I call dumped' compilation that I made (before I was single).

Got a text from Janey 2day seeing what I was up2 2nite n if I wanted 2 go2 Oceana with them 2nite. But am working so I cudunt. Plus to be honest I don't think I'd be much in the way of company.

Went round to Toozer's to watch Neighbours n was jus sat there n her dan n kt kept asking wat was wrong n I just sat there like an idiot not saying anything. I kinda no they care about me(ish) but then they really don't KNOW me, I mean they no bits of me and they prob no me better than most here but it's not the same. I guess that's wat I miss about Nao. Having someone know everything about me and still be there 4 me no matter wat is an amazing feeling and then it was taken away.

I feel so stupid, this all ended a year ago but perhaps it's cuz there's so many people here who are in happy, loving relationships and it's bringing stuff back.

"Come What May" just came on. Mine and Nao's song. From Moulin Rouge. Let's see if I can make it through huh? Shud be aight. We used to sing this song together. Nah, is all gud.

Love Song for No-one

John Mayer

Staying home alone on a Friday

Flat on the floor looking back

On old love

Or lack thereof

After all the crushes are faded

And all my wishful thinking was wrong

I'm jaded

I hate it

I'm tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

So tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

Get here

Searching all my days just to find you

I'm not sure who I'm looking for

I'll know it

When I see you

Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom

Staying up all night just to write

A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

So tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox

I could have passed you on the sidewalk

Could I have missed my chance

And watched you walk away?

Oh no way

I could have met you in a sandbox

I could have passed you on the sidewalk

Could I have missed my chance

And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

I'm so tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

You'll be so good

You'll be so good for me

2006-10-15T13:00:00.000+01:00

Catch up...
Uh, friday night I worked at Ocean again. Came home, went to bed.

Saturday woke up at about 1 bummed around 4 a bit, went skating with Ron n Becka. She does my head in. I'm not exactly sure why, but she just REALLY REALLY irritates the hellouta me. But then I remember that she's just a kid and I must make allowances for such things!!

Anywho, after skating and some shopping and some fun playing with the dummies in Top Man, we came back n me, joe, dan n ron watched jarhead in my room.

Then me n Dan went over to The Toozer's and THEN went to a party at the Laurels which was aight, nothing majorly special to be honest but met some new people and saw Jenny again. Not seen her in ages. I was being a total dick, not sure why. Everyone there that knew me (and there was a lot) didn't mind but the new people were getting REALLY pissed off with me! Is all good tho cuz as soon as I'm done being a wanker, I can turn on the

legendary Loco charm and everything is all good again. I should have taken a happy picture for comedy value but didn't think of it. Urm ok yeh then during the party had a fight with Sam (which he lost) in fact I think we had two fights! But anyways later on I met a girlie called Leanne (on the left, it's Jenny on the right...)

but I forget where she's from and she disappeared anyways!

Went back to Jenny's for a bit, showed her some stuff online, experienced her eclectic taste in music, namely German metal! Anyways was cool, then sum1 bangs on the door to say that sum1 has been raped in their room about 10 metres away from where everybody was sat at the party, by a guy that wasn't from uni that some chick had met in a club and invited (alledgedly). The police came and 'arrested' him whilst Ron and some people were playing frisbee outside.

So yeh, that was last night and now you're up to date.

2006-10-13T13:15:00.000+01:00

Click here to have a look at an important update that I finally got around to posting; the hilarious videos of Oli and Kate...

2006-10-13T11:59:00.000+01:00

Last night was mental; first there was this guy that looked almost exactly like me that tried to kidnap louise...

Then after I saved the day I went to a free bar at the Bluu Room and got totally trashed.

Then about 6 of us went to Ocean, to the Luffboro night (for free of course) had a drink and I hugged all the doormen!!

Then we went to BZR bar and had a triple for the price of a single...

Then we went to The Coco Lounge.

Then we went to The Social.

Then Dan got a call from Katie saying that she'd just got home, so we got a cab and went to go visit. When we got there she wouldn't let us in. She texted me "I'm naked, let me sleep..." so we thought we should bang on her window which was a lot of fun. Then it turned out that sexy Zoe the former cheerleader lived in the same building as Katie, Louise and Roxy on the top floor as she started shouting at us to be quiet!!!

Anywho that's about all from last night, had a lecture at 9am that I made it to cuz Zoe gave me a lift!!!

2006-10-12T17:56:00.000+01:00

I currently send this blog as a special edition from Katie's room...
Katie was just describing her 'friend' that is half American, half Ukranian and half Russian. Then shortly after Roxy somehow scratched herself in the face.

We are watching Neighbours so I'd better go, but I had to write this before I forgot..!

2006-10-12T03:44:00.000+01:00

Just got back from ISIS, was aight. Didn't pay to get in cuz used my door licence, was a rugby social so had to wear rugby shorts, shirt and tie. Freshers decimated the other team members in a boat race. Me, George and Oli went back to Oli's to cry about the world. Oli broke up with the love of his life, George freshly single tonight (cuz he cheated. Ahem) and me? Well nothing new there, just this time with mi hombres.

Three Single, lonely guys singing their hearts out...

2006-10-11T21:23:00.000+01:00

Paul Robinson show

Nightmare...

2006-10-11T17:34:00.000+01:00

I just emailled this to all 1st year law students with the subject: "Vote for me and all your wildest dreams will come true" - Pedro Sanchez

Hey Everyone, I'm Loco and I'm running for the 1st year Law Society rep.

Firstly I'd like to make a personal shout out to Hope who came up with this fantastico voting spam idea. For that reason alone she's getting my vote!! Plus I met her last night and she genuinely seem like a good person for the job.

Anywho, I could spout a load of nonsense saying why you should vote for me and what I will do for you guys but I'm not going to waste your time on that.

I'm gonna give you the brief cliffnotes on who I am, cuz lets face it it's all about personality politics these days. Then I'm gonna hit you with a promise...

Ok, I'm Luke Hancock. You all know me as Loco as this is my nickname, I'd explain why but it's irelevant. Ask me later.

I've just done 5 gap years which makes me 23. During this time I did a bunch of stuff including a cruiseship photographer, babysat Westlife and looked after the Zutons. I played under 19s rugby for bath and had to stop due to a snowboarding accident. I was down to the final 2 for an MTV presenter but the other guy got it so I went BASE jumping in Argentina with my friends for the summer instead.

I also used to be better looking, since I stopped playing rugby my six pack became a mini-bar!!!! (No, not looking for sympathy. Merely stating the facts which may explain the Twister boxers at the pyjama party..!)

I know that there are many choices of candidate for this job and the fact that I can queue-jump people for Ocean is completely true but I'm not going to try and bribe you or even suggest you follow your heart. Vote for the person that you like most! Oh and I'm also a terrible loser. I know this and I'm comfortable with it. There's no point playing if you're not trying to win.

Oh yeh, the promise...

I promise, that due to my being older and having earned a greater sense of responsibilty and integrity that my door will always be open if anyone needs suggestions passed on (once my room is tidy) and that my priorities in university are to be the best I can be at everything I do and to make lifelong friends. If you take nothing else from this (assuming you actually read this far!) remember that in the business we've chosen for ourselves it's not what you know it's who you know. Oh I also have Duncan from Blue's fone number as he is a friend of mine. Sorry, I shouldn't name drop. Busta Rhymes told me that. Or was it Brad Pitt? I don't remember... No really, vote for me. You know it makes sense.

I could write about moral fibre, but we all know that it's all about whether the juice is worth the squeeze...

Ooh and on a COMPLETELY unrelated issue, I'd like to take this opportunity to slate that guy at the Freshers address that misquoted James Dean, who ACTUALLY said; "Dream like you'll live forever, live like you'll die tomorrow..."

Oh that's it, I'm spent.

Stay Classy

Vote Loco!!!!

Regards,
Luke Hancock

2006-10-11T02:51:00.000+01:00

Sorry blogging has been VERY laxed folks, I've been busy and forgetting and stuff. Had a law society adoption party thing tonight, didn't really have anything to do with adoption in any way but there was a free bar for all of 30 mins when at that point £3000 had been spent and they had to stop! I went around networking and telling people that they needed to vote Loco for the 1st year rep, it seemed to be quite successful. Was a fun night(ish) was slightly marred by the fact that the medics were there too and their thing took AGES. There was some fire twirling things which were cool for about 7 mins and continued for a farther 23 minutes.

Got back and watched some Top Gun with some semi-randoms in my room and Ron Burgundy.

Should prob go to sleep now, got a lecture in 6 hours that I need to speak at re: my election. Oh and I also need to actually sign up for the running!!!

Later Daters...

2006-10-10T05:25:00.000+01:00

Just got in, was crazier than I could possibly describe so I shall just post the videos recorded...

2006-10-09T15:44:00.000+01:00

Watching Scarface. Not done much today, did some law reading. Had a lecture @ 9am and then came home and went to sleep for like 5 hours. Got a fonecall from Janey which was lovely and then a call from my casting agent saying that I need to be in London on the 23rd to be in a movie called 'Dangerous Minds' so I'm gonna have to see if I can sort that somehow.

Fran just texted me saying she's not going to the lecture and can I take notes for her!! Wonder what SHE'S doing...

2006-10-09T11:03:00.000+01:00

Have I introduced you to Danny, my mentally challenged friend? He's a special guy...

2006-10-09T01:13:00.000+01:00

Yep, watching Titanic. It's just about to sink. Alls I need is some chocolate ice cream and I'll be sorted. Someone to watch it with would be nice, but hey ho...

Apologies for the melancholy blog, I guess everyone has down days. At least I get to see Fran tomorrow. She's a certified cutie, her attitude is so funny it's untrue! She gets all stressed when people turn up late for lectures or cough too much. We got the Chitty-lady first thing, I wonder if we'll get any hannouts.

I'm gonna run for 1st year Law Society rep, I wonder when the elections are going to be..?

2006-10-08T22:16:00.000+01:00

Still done nothing today. Kinda depressing really. Ron n Dan went to the cinema to see a movie that I really wana c but my finances are so totally screwed it's untrue. I've worked 3 nights last week and will prob work 4 of this. I have literally £10 to last me almost 2 weeks. A couple of people have been helping me out but I hate it, and I certainly don't wanna ask to borrow money but I don't have much choice right now.

I need to get out of my room because I'm wallowing. I'm currently sat, in my boxers watching Love Actually and seriously considering watching Titanic after... I would love to go out but really cannot afford it and don't want other people to feel obliged to help.

2006-10-08T18:48:00.000+01:00

Yeah so I've literally done NOTHING today. I haven't even left my room, people have been over n stuff but I haven't bothered to get dressed. I might just go back to bed now!!!

2006-10-08T12:48:00.000+01:00

Jus got a text from Katie telling me not to put her into my blog. That just really pissed me off cuz I thought I was being very diplomatic about what happened yesterday. I kinda snapped a little bit last night with Kate in the car. I guess it's starting to get to me that people think I'm Loco, the funny guy. That doesn't mean I'm gonna get myself walked all over. I don't respond well to being told what to do and tend to have a short fuse about it, along with being made to feel stupid. I don't mind feeling stupid in the least, as long as I'm doing it! As for being told what to do? Forget about it.

People here really don't know me, they know the cheery, silly, happy facade that I put on most of the time. Ok, I say facade, but that's prob the wrong word as that suggests that it's fake when it's not. I am genuinely all those things but there is still another level of me that if someone pushes the right buttons comes out and I snap. For example when I had beer thrown over me last night I REALLY wanted to smack her in her stupid head but I didn't (and never would) so I just got stressed instead. And when I wasn't bouncing around like a clown in the club the other night it surprsed Jane.

I'm not a stressful person, it's just living in this goldfish bowl where everyone knows about everything and you can't just freak out and have it not matter. I guess it's just getting a little claustrophobic and reminding me psychologically of all the things I hated about cruiseships. Having said that, if I was to go home for like a week and be sat by myself I'm sure that this would all be exciting and wonderful again. That was what I noticed after leaving ship, initially it was all gud cuz I was back home n stuff but then after the novelty had worn off I missed it like you won't believe (but I'm sure can imagine).

I guess I'm feeling a little lonesome as well. It's a weird paradox how you can be surrounded by people, yet feel totally alone. It's like loving someone so much that you hate them. Know what I mean?

The problem with this place is that if I talk to a girl there are certain expectations unwilling and unjustly attached to my actions and my words. For example if I wanted to go back to my room to talk with said young lady I could not suggest this as there would be the unwarranted insinuation that there would be sex involved which really would not be the case. I like people. I want to get to know people and want them to get to know me. 1on1 situations are far better if you actually want to have a real conversation with someone. How many people here have actually taken the time to talk to me? Sit down with me and ask how my day has been or just genuinely see how I am? You can be so close to people, yet mentally so far away. I'm not complaining and certainly not bitching, just observing. ESPECIALLY in regards to the fact that everyone is assuming everyone is shagging. I know unequivably that Louise and Ricky aren't doing anything untoward, because I get the situation. I understand it. Plus Rich, Louise's guy (ironic I know) is a decent bloke from what I have seen. I also get on really well with Ricky so I really don't see a problem. Yet everyone assumes (initially myself included) that they were getting it on. This is why I cannot criticise anyone for assuming everything is about sex as I was doing the same thing. But having said that, rather than make sweeping judgements based on assumptions and rumours I found out the situation for myself as is really is.

2006-10-08T04:14:00.000+01:00

Just got in. Watching wedding crashers while I write this, so if I go off at a tangent that's why..!

Woke up in time for rugby practise at 2pm. Dan picked me up at 3 and we went to visit Lou at work...

Then we watched the England match which was a waste of time as it was a rubbish 0-0 draw. Then we went to visit Katie, her Mum and sisters were there and I sorted out her internet for her. Then after they left I decided that I should style her hair for no particular reason!! During our stay it came to light that Lee (Katie's boyfriend) is somewhat paranoid about my interactions with Katie. I'm flirtatious, sure. And because I keep my options open and let people know how I feel about things, I don't think that makes me a bad person. After all, I'm not in a relationship so I don't feel it is my responsibility to worry about peoples' boyfriends' insecurities. Anywho I stumbled across a text whilst playing on Katie's fone that said she'd only invited me over to fix her internet, which was charming!! There is a video that could be posted on this particular blog and if you want to see it, you only need to ask...

Later that night Dan and I decided to go to Arc, the union bar. Dan stole a mask from some drunk dude! Olly and George were there too, was pretty good fun. Met some crazy yet beautiful chick called Jenny that sounded Welsh, was from the Lake District and went to Loughboro uni. She kept on saying how she loved me and I was her favourite Fresher!!!

When the Arc closed, I went outside to get Dan's car (as I hadn't drunk anything) and tried to find out who needed a lift back to Broadgate. I carried Jenny outside and for some reason put her in the boot and then for some other reason took her out, climbed in myself and someone put her in and shut the boot!!! Anyways we decide to drive Olly, Kate and George back. During the journey whilst listening to some music Kate decides that she has to shout at me to turn it down so she can talk to her friend and then starts smacking me and I slam on the breaks and ask her what she's doing. See now if it was an important conversation I wouldn't mind, but all she was saying was that she loved her friend so we turned up the music and told her she could call when we got back. THEN when we get back, Kate is cold and wants to borrow a hoody which is cool but then she just decided to go home with it! Ah well, but yeh am walking to Dan's and these people come up to me saying has someone lost some keys and this girl Becky that I'd met tonight had, so I called Jenny and then Becky called me and we met up and I gave her back her keys. Then she decided to hang about for a bit at Dan's while he made fish-cakes (which actually turned out to taste really good!) I then for some reason carried her upstairs to another room which turned out to be Curious George's room! Jenny and her mate are in there...

I thought it would be funny to borrow her fone and see if she noticed, about 20 mins later it rings so I answer and return it. Then about 10 mins after I gave it back whilst we were having a little chat she decided to chuck the remainder of the beer that I HAD GIVEN HER over me. I have no idea why she did it, but it really bothered me and kinda wrecked my night...

2006-10-07T04:33:00.000+01:00

Oh My...

I just got back from work, but I'll tell you about that later. I walk in and Ron's door is ajar so as usual, I stroll right in (admittedly slower than usual and knocking all the while). From the briefest of glances imaginable, I see Ron. Butt naked sprawled on his bed. As I said, was a brief glance and details will be sparse. I can only assume that Ron, got himself wasted, passed out and left his door open! Obviously this is all based on assumption, I with gather 1st hand information. Was so funny tho, it deserved a mention.

Anyways, work. Work was really gud tonight, there was sooo many people in the club that I knew and it was like being paid for a night out and not having to spend any money! Time rocketed past cuz I was mostly just chatting to and dancing with my mates!

I finally got Laura (the hottie from law)'s fone number, but then didn't see much of her for the rest of the night. Curious George and Sam were supposed to show up, but apparently couldn't handle the queue!!!

Anyways, ama hit the sack.

Later Daters...

2006-10-06T14:19:00.000+01:00

Worked Ocean again last night, was a Loughboro party. Nothing happened, although this time I got to walk around!! Dan showed up with his mate and I let them in in exchange for a burger! He knew a load of the people that were there anyways so it was all good. Although at the end when the different halls were hurling abuse at each other (as they invariably tend to do) Dan and his friend were shouting their allegiance to an entirely different university!!! Needless to say they got one or ten funny looks...

Not heard anything from Jane for a few days, bumped into her on my way back from law yesterday n she seemed upset but didn't seem to want to talk about it so I jus text her to say get better soon but no reply. I see Fran every day for law which is cool even if she IS a cute lil total stresshead!! She's all excited about her guy coming up to see her today!! Oh yeh, Jane had a date last night n the guy stayed at hers so that may have some indication as to why she wouldn't reply to my texts. Oh I dunno, I jus want it to go back to how it was that first night in Oceana wen we all had loads of fun. I wanna try n talk to her but I dnt wana make a big deal out of it or have it come across all confrontational. Oh I duno, whatever man.

2006-10-06T14:12:00.000+01:00

Party was aight last night. Turns out it was actually someone's birthday so I felt kinda bad about giving Lou the cake. Dan said it was the blind girl in their apartment's birthday and that we could tell her her name was on the cake and she wouldn't know any diff! So we gave the cake to Lou anyways and then SHE gave it to the birthday girl and said it was from her! Wasn't the blind girl after all but the birthday girl (called Sarah I think) was a total Lege cuz she got my goth varnish off for me after having it on for like an extra 3 days more than I really needed to! Working on the door at Ocean tonight. Am running seriously low on cash as my loan STILL hasn't come through...

2006-10-05T13:16:00.000+01:00

Ended up staying at Trent last night! Met Lou's bloke, Rich. Seems like a decent guy. Just got back to mine, missed my first lecture. Must get the 'hannout' from Joey. Work was pretty uneventful, all I had to do was sit on a chair and watch women dance. I thought you had to pay for that kind of entertainment, not BE PAID for it!! Ah well, it's a dirty job but SOMEONE'S gotta do it and it may as well be me! Working again tonight...

2006-10-03T11:53:00.000+01:00

Just got back from my first lecture which was VERY basic. I apologised to Jane for my foolish behavior of Sunday night. I think we're cool, but she still seemed a little 'off' with me. Went to a playboy themed party at Oceana last night with Jane, Fran, Gem, Sarah and 2 other girlies whose name's I've forgotten! That's my bad... Was ok mostly until I got ditched several times, ended up hanging with some of Kate's minions who seemed aight. Anyways, kinda forced to deal with my foolish Jane-related issues seeings as she was with some dude most of the night, I thought she had a bloke? Ah well nothin to do with me! Life is good right now, I don't need women complicating it up. I may as well face it, I am a lamp and shall set up camp in 'the zone'. But if I take some of my own advice am sure I'll be fine. It wasn't so long ago that I told someone that if you're not enough of a person on your own you'll never be enough with someone else. I guess uni life is bringing out some insecurities that haven't been around for quite some time and I'm not used to having to deal with them. It's a strange paradoxial situation being constantly around the same people.

Off to a party at the girlies' tonight. Me n Dan are getting Louise a birthday cake as everywhere we go we sing happy birthday to her (plus we saw one reduced)...