After an average of 10 hits on this blog over the past 12 days of me having not written anything, I feel that it is time for an update. Later.

Dunno when I wrote this last but I know it's been a while. Has been a kinda funny coupla days. Wednesday was good;

1pm-2pm Latin & Ballroom class where we had to do some crazy-ass cha cha that I had no idea how to do. The teacher-lady made me and the other 4 guys that had shown up stand at the front while we had to do it AND THEN suggested that all the girlies behind us look at our bottoms! THEN she decided to SPECIFICALLY point out my D&G bottom. See now, if I could do the stupid dance I would have minded but I couldn't :o(

2.30pm-4.30pm Rugby training!!

11.00pm-3.30am Work. Work was funny cuz I was at the same bar as Ron and he was working his ass off whilst I was just sat there! He worked from 8-4(ish) and I got the same amount of pay. I quite like being qualified you know...

Went to the arc last night was aight, hate having no cash. Have some today tho, but I owe most of it to people already!!

Oh and I watched the Chelsea match whenever that was on, don't think I wrote about that.

Gonna finish watching the last Samurai now.

Work tonight.

Laters...

Last night went to the arc, tried to get a bunch of people to go too but every1s out 2nite wen am working which is annoying. 5 of us went down and then I got a text off of Ellie that I met Monday nite at work and went back 2 hers 4 a bit.

Bowt it really. Oh this morning I was woken up by the Asda man saying that my food had arrived...

Don't really know where to start, no idea what the last thing I wrote was so I'm sorry if there are gaps.

Today is a bad day.

It was a year ago 2day that Nao broke my heart and it would have been our anniversary on Monday. I don't know if that has any bearing on how I am feeling right now or if it is just a strange conincedence. I just feel like absolute, total shit. I don't wanna do ANYTHING, I jus wanna sleep for a hundred years.

I miss my pup, I miss being able to call her n have her snuggle up in bed with me. I jus miss having sum1 u no? I feel so low and I can't explain it. I guess perhaps it's worse for me cuz am usually cheerful and when I feel down I kinda withdraw into myself and don't want to see anyone and am afraid that if I talk to someone or hug sum1 I'll break down and that's something I don't ever want to do. I guess I feel like I don't really know anyone well enough. I have only known every1 here for about a month!!

I wish I didn't feel this way, I feel so vunerable and pathetic. I feel an empty longing in the pit of my stomach and a lump in my throat.

It's not about Nao, I know it's not. I don't miss her and I don't want to get back with her. I know this for sure. ESPECIALLY cuz am happy 4 her and her guy, I really am. I miss talking to her sure, but I miss talking to all my friends. I guess it's kinda like if someone has their leg cut off, they ocassionally get phantom feelings from the missing limb(yeh that's from silence of the lambs, but we'll leave that alone) so maybe I'm just having old feelings kicked up. I dunno am waffling and talking nonsense.

I'm currently sat, eating Ben & Jerry's cookie dough ice cream and listening to my 'Now that's what I call dumped' compilation that I made (before I was single).

Got a text from Janey 2day seeing what I was up2 2nite n if I wanted 2 go2 Oceana with them 2nite. But am working so I cudunt. Plus to be honest I don't think I'd be much in the way of company.

Went round to Toozer's to watch Neighbours n was jus sat there n her dan n kt kept asking wat was wrong n I just sat there like an idiot not saying anything. I kinda no they care about me(ish) but then they really don't KNOW me, I mean they no bits of me and they prob no me better than most here but it's not the same. I guess that's wat I miss about Nao. Having someone know everything about me and still be there 4 me no matter wat is an amazing feeling and then it was taken away.

I feel so stupid, this all ended a year ago but perhaps it's cuz there's so many people here who are in happy, loving relationships and it's bringing stuff back.

"Come What May" just came on. Mine and Nao's song. From Moulin Rouge. Let's see if I can make it through huh? Shud be aight. We used to sing this song together. Nah, is all gud.

Love Song for No-one

John Mayer

Staying home alone on a Friday

Flat on the floor looking back

On old love

Or lack thereof

After all the crushes are faded

And all my wishful thinking was wrong

I'm jaded

I hate it

I'm tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

So tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

Get here

Searching all my days just to find you

I'm not sure who I'm looking for

I'll know it

When I see you

Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom

Staying up all night just to write

A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

So tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

I could have met you in a sandbox

I could have passed you on the sidewalk

Could I have missed my chance

And watched you walk away?

Oh no way

I could have met you in a sandbox

I could have passed you on the sidewalk

Could I have missed my chance

And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

I'm so tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here

You'll be so good

You'll be so good for me

Catch up...
Uh, friday night I worked at Ocean again. Came home, went to bed.

Saturday woke up at about 1 bummed around 4 a bit, went skating with Ron n Becka. She does my head in. I'm not exactly sure why, but she just REALLY REALLY irritates the hellouta me. But then I remember that she's just a kid and I must make allowances for such things!!

Anywho, after skating and some shopping and some fun playing with the dummies in Top Man, we came back n me, joe, dan n ron watched jarhead in my room.

Then me n Dan went over to The Toozer's and THEN went to a party at the Laurels which was aight, nothing majorly special to be honest but met some new people and saw Jenny again. Not seen her in ages. I was being a total dick, not sure why. Everyone there that knew me (and there was a lot) didn't mind but the new people were getting REALLY pissed off with me! Is all good tho cuz as soon as I'm done being a wanker, I can turn on the

legendary Loco charm and everything is all good again. I should have taken a happy picture for comedy value but didn't think of it. Urm ok yeh then during the party had a fight with Sam (which he lost) in fact I think we had two fights! But anyways later on I met a girlie called Leanne (on the left, it's Jenny on the right...)

but I forget where she's from and she disappeared anyways!

Went back to Jenny's for a bit, showed her some stuff online, experienced her eclectic taste in music, namely German metal! Anyways was cool, then sum1 bangs on the door to say that sum1 has been raped in their room about 10 metres away from where everybody was sat at the party, by a guy that wasn't from uni that some chick had met in a club and invited (alledgedly). The police came and 'arrested' him whilst Ron and some people were playing frisbee outside.

So yeh, that was last night and now you're up to date.

Click here to have a look at an important update that I finally got around to posting; the hilarious videos of Oli and Kate...

Last night was mental; first there was this guy that looked almost exactly like me that tried to kidnap louise...

Then after I saved the day I went to a free bar at the Bluu Room and got totally trashed.

Then about 6 of us went to Ocean, to the Luffboro night (for free of course) had a drink and I hugged all the doormen!!

Then we went to BZR bar and had a triple for the price of a single...

Then we went to The Coco Lounge.

Then we went to The Social.

Then Dan got a call from Katie saying that she'd just got home, so we got a cab and went to go visit. When we got there she wouldn't let us in. She texted me "I'm naked, let me sleep..." so we thought we should bang on her window which was a lot of fun. Then it turned out that sexy Zoe the former cheerleader lived in the same building as Katie, Louise and Roxy on the top floor as she started shouting at us to be quiet!!!

Anywho that's about all from last night, had a lecture at 9am that I made it to cuz Zoe gave me a lift!!!

I currently send this blog as a special edition from Katie's room...
Katie was just describing her 'friend' that is half American, half Ukranian and half Russian. Then shortly after Roxy somehow scratched herself in the face.

We are watching Neighbours so I'd better go, but I had to write this before I forgot..!

Just got back from ISIS, was aight. Didn't pay to get in cuz used my door licence, was a rugby social so had to wear rugby shorts, shirt and tie. Freshers decimated the other team members in a boat race. Me, George and Oli went back to Oli's to cry about the world. Oli broke up with the love of his life, George freshly single tonight (cuz he cheated. Ahem) and me? Well nothing new there, just this time with mi hombres.

Three Single, lonely guys singing their hearts out...